Change

We are now all anticipating for the most important day, the resurrection of our Lord.

While doing so, at the moment I felt I am invigorated after yesterday's reflection. For one, I am feeling normal once again, normal I mean my usual self. 

Earlier today at work though I felt pressured since a member of parliament is scheduled to conduct an ocular inspection in the area of my work, I remained composed. Who would not be pressured, the management has been calling to make the site tidy for the big day tomorrow but the contractor is not doing good enough to have the site in order. It really tested my patience today, which is in complete contrast. Up to the last minute they are still doing housekeeping work. I just hope I would not receive a reprimand  comes tuesday. I was a bit surprised with the attitude I have today.

While I have moved to a bigger room few days ago, it was only now that I am satisfied with the arrangement after few tries. Until I become bored again, this will be my room set up.

I made some changes with the blog as you may notice. Less clutter now. I am planning for some facelift but it will not come soon.

Whatever changes you have as brought by the past days, I hope that is for your better good and last until next.

Happy Easter everyone.

The greatest sacrifice

He was wounded for our transgressions, crushed for our iniquities; by His wounds we are hailed.

---Isaiah 53

Bear with me

I am still not in my usual mood. Something is really bothering me. Up to now I don't have idea what it is. My mind is still in hiatus. I am too lazy to move around town. I practically stay home these days. 

I need a diversion, but how I don't have clear idea what should I do. If I were in pinas, maybe it would be different altogether. In two days I shall be then back in the province for the observance of the passion and death of Christ. Easter will be spend in the beach for whole day family picnic. My family won't be complete this year aside from me, our eldest and his family had relocated months ago in a province far away and I doubt if they have intention of coming home for the holy week.

I have only Friday to observe and reflect lent. No fanfare, no crucification to witness, no station of the cross, no visita iglesia. No beach. I will devout the whole day for reflection. Saturday I have work. 

I just hope comes easter, things will be different.

Clueless

I Am not busy and in fact I have nothing to do these past few days. My mind and body seemed to not functioning since Sunday. I have no idea what was happening to me. I spent the whole day in my room, in bed. In fact I hardly eat that day, I was hungry I know but I did not take solid food. It was only later that afternoon when I decided to cook instant noodle. As I don't like the taste of it, I added beef meat, pichay, garlic, onion, and eggs to better the taste. With slice bread, that served as my food intake for the day. I can't focused on television, I hardly touched my mac, and worst I had no sms received that day. I dragged myself for the six o'clock mass, and while on it I can't focus. I hardly remember what was the gospel and homily. In fact I did not wait for the final blessing as I hurriedly went out.  I heard mass within town and not in the city, and when this is the case I usually pass by the mall to catch movie and or just have dinner. Even that I skipped. I went straight home. I hardly eaten and in fact nothing changed since I woke up that day.

And it was the same the next day, Monday. Something was bothering me but I don't know why. I had difficulty getting up from bed. Coffee, hot shower, and laundry chore hardly made impact in my slobbish state. My usual lunch bought from the hawker center became tasteless and half eaten. I tried to sleep but I just can't. I really don't understand what was happening to me, and the fact that no matter how I tried to freed from it, I just can't. 

So no wonder the next day at work, I was in complete mess. Buti na lang wala masyado activities sa site. But the feeling stayed the same the whole day. In fact at midday I was tempted to file a half day leave, but I knew it was not possible so I ended up dragged the time.

Until today. But now that I can write this, I guess I am going back to my usual self. 

But still clueless what really hit me.

By the way I went to the earth day event in Esplanade Park last Saturday, so that means my room was in complete darkness for four hours that I was away that night, more than enough the earth hour requires.

Got these pictures.

Before

During

After